December 31, the last day of 2014. I’m just going to come right out and say it: I hate change.
I am not one of those people who embrace change with open arms and say, “Oh goody, I was looking for something new and different.” I am definitely one of those people who agonize over decisions and spend days, weeks even, weighing pros and cons and potential outcomes. I’m working on it. But for me that means that big significant dates in the year – namely New Years and my birthday – mark turning points that I’d rather just ignore.
Logically, I know that nothing will actually be different tomorrow except the date; but, internally, I’m trying desperately not to take stock of the past year and wonder if I’ve accomplished enough. Did I achieve the goals I set for myself at the beginning of the year? Have I grown enough? Have I moved forward at all this year? But there’s the catch. “Enough.” Enough for what? Enough for whom? Just exactly what impossible standard am I attempting to measure up to, and whose? Because, you see, at this time of the year, it seems as if everyone starts a massive bragging campaign on social media to share their incredible years. That’s great, I’m happy for you, and if I look back, I had a great year, too. But that’s not the point.
I want to change this mode of thinking, of measuring and comparing and constantly taking stock to try to quantify what really does not need to be totaled or tallied. That has been one of my biggest goals this past year, and some days it went really well, and on others, I fell off the wagon (or is it back on the wagon? I never understood that expression). But what really matters is that I made the effort. I tried, and often succeeded, in living in the moment. I may not have photographic evidence, or a chart or graph, but I have so many wonderful memories from the past year of simply living and enjoying my life. Precious time spent with loved ones, learning, growing, laughing, even crying, but, most importantly, sharing with others.
In the past, I have made resolutions to work on my physical health and lose weight (2012 – I lost 30 pounds, go me!), to work on my mental and emotional health (2013 – I wrote in a journal nearly every day and gained so much invaluable insight and confidence!), and to work on my fiscal health, a.k.a. save money (2014 – I paid off my car AND saved enough money to open a separate money market savings account, hurray for financial responsibility!).
These past couple months leading up to the new year, I tried to get a head start on my goals for 2015: to be present more, to be less busy and more productive, to get organized, and to work on my professional life and career. I downloaded a new list management app – Wunderlist – which has totally helped me stay on top of all of my lists! I completely revamped my blog, including a new name, new website and new design (still rolling out updates slowly, but I’m so pleased with the progress so far)! And I just signed up for the Make It Happen Challenge with Anneke of This, That and Life!
I feel as though I have gotten pretty good at setting a goal for myself and working to achieve that goal, but I want to get better. I want to make 2015 even better than I can imagine because there is so much I want to achieve and I just know that with the right tools, I can accomplish anything I set my mind to! I’m hoping that by joining the Make It Happen Challenge, I’ll be able to figure out where my strengths and weaknesses lie and I can create a system for myself to not only get done what I want to get done, but create the free time to do even more, and enjoy even more of my life!
I hope you are ready for a great year, because I sure as heck am ready to rock 2015!
From the bottom of my heart, thanks for reading!
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